It ok man, I forgive you.
I know the feeling of ragequitting too.
Anyway, if you need someething to do or feel good about, start an art project, something you can hang above your bed and look at when you wake up in the morning.
Or community service, have a local animal shelter or humane society? Those are great places to work at, I worked at one for about a year and it was very rewarding being able to see the smiles on those animals faces.
I hope we can still be buddies and put this all beind us <3333